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Le titre de cette vidéo est ASMR Asking Mom To Be Your Chastity Keyholder « Une histoire présentée par la Matriarcal Society of Sophrosyne! Vous savez depuis un certain temps que vous avez été trop distrait au collège. La solution semble claire: vous devez être verrouillé dans un appareil de chasteté qui améliorera votre volonté. Mais une ceinture de chasteté n’est pas une ceinture de chasteté sans porteurs de clés qui sera ferme et strict avec vous, vous ne pouvez donc pas compter sur aucun de vos amis. Il n’y a qu’un seul véritable choix pour vous garder chaste et fermement enfermé: la femme la plus stricte que vous connaissez, votre maman. Et toute maman diligente lui fera le mieux pour assurer la sécurité de son fils … s’il l’aime ou non … (tagstotranslate) flr ».

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Stratégies et méthodes pour la chasteté masculine contrôlée :

L’ère antique en Grèce et à Rome.

Dans les civilisations antiques grecque et romaine, la chasteté se rattachait souvent à la pureté et à la vertu. Néanmoins, elle n’était pas généralement imposée au moyen de ceintures de chasteté ou d’autres dispositifs physiques. Elle se rattachait davantage à des notions spirituelles et religieuses. Les Vestales, prêtresses de la déesse Vesta dans la Rome antique, devaient rester vierges sous peine de mort. Il s’agit d’un exemple significatif de la manière dont la chasteté était institutionnalisée.

La civilisation de l’Égypte ancienne a marqué l’histoire de façon significative.

La chasteté était parfois une décision volontaire prise par les prêtres et prêtresses en Égypte. Ils estimaient que l’abstinence augmentait leur puissance spirituelle. Cependant, il n’existe aucune preuve matérielle indiquant l’usage de dispositifs physiques pour assurer la chasteté. Le contrôle de la sexualité était plutôt une question de maîtrise personnelle. Elle était aussi influencée par des coutumes religieuses.

On relie fréquemment le Moyen Âge aux ceintures de chasteté. Cependant, les preuves historiques ne confirment pas cette idée.

Le lien entre la période médiévale et les ceintures de chasteté est souvent établi. Toutefois, ce lien avec les ceintures de chasteté est dû à des récits légendaires tardifs. Les croisés auraient, selon la légende, enfermé leurs épouses dans des ceintures de chasteté. Le but de ces ceintures était de garantir la fidélité des épouses des croisés. Des représentations et des textes ont aidé à diffuser cette idée. Il existe peu de traces historiques pour attester de l’usage des ceintures de chasteté.

Le Moyen Âge a souvent lié la chasteté aux valeurs morales. Le pouvoir médiéval s’appuyait sur la chasteté pour contrôler les comportements.

Dans de nombreuses cultures, la chasteté des femmes était associée à la foi religieuse.

Au Moyen Âge, la chasteté féminine était un symbole de vertu et de moralité. L’Église valorisait la virginité avant le mariage et la fidélité après comme des principes cruciaux. Les femmes, en tant que gardiennes de la pureté morale, utilisaient la chasteté pour garantir la légitimité des héritiers.

Les croisades ont profondément influencé les pratiques de chasteté des chevaliers.

Avant leur départ pour les croisades, les chevaliers européens prenaient souvent des vœux de chasteté, pensant que cela affermissait leur pureté morale et spirituelle pour les préparant mieux à la guerre sainte.

La chasteté était un aspect crucial des règlements des ordres monastiques, intégrée dans leur mode de vie quotidien.

Les bénédictins, les cisterciens et les chevaliers teutoniques, parmi d’autres ordres monastiques médiévaux, suivaient des vœux de chasteté stricte. Pour les moines et chevaliers médiévaux, la chasteté représentait un renoncement aux plaisirs terrestres tout en favorisant l’élévation spirituelle. La chasteté est un thème central dans les histoires et légendes médiévales, reflétant son importance dans les sphères religieuses, morales, et sociales. Que ce soit à travers des ceintures de chasteté mythiques, des vœux solennels avant les croisades, ou des luttes personnelles contre la tentation, la chasteté représentait un concept central entouré de mysticisme et de dévotion. Les anecdotes médiévales montrent que la chasteté était un outil de contrôle, de pouvoir, et de quête spirituelle dans un monde souvent en conflit entre le physique et le spirituel.

Dispositifs conçus pour les hommes et les femmes : La lutte contre la masturbation et les premiers dispositifs de chasteté.

À l’ère victorienne, la masturbation était perçue comme une menace sérieuse pour la santé physique et mentale. Les médecins ainsi que les moralistes de cette période recommandaient des mesures rigoureuses pour éviter ce qu’ils appelaient « l’auto-abus ». Cette situation a entraîné la mise en place et l’usage de dispositifs de chasteté, pour les hommes comme pour les femmes. À notre époque, la chasteté est adoptée dans des contextes multiples, et des coachs offrent leur expertise pour guider les intéressés (notamment ce service pour la chasteté masculine)

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Retranscription des paroles de la vidéo: good day to you all my name is Leona Ashcroft and I oversee the archives of the sasen Federation for matriarchal superiority where we detail the most effective means of keeping Brash young men under control and right where they belong locked up in Chastity and at the behest of a wise woman key holder you’ll be hearing a lot more about us before long but today I wanted to share with you a little something from our archives the journal entries of Francis Maxwell a young young man who struggled against what was right but ultimately found his way to where he needed to be from the chassity Journal of Francis Maxwell day one I’ve been feeling ashamed of myself for weeks now every time I fall into temptation I’m left with guilt that feels like it’s eating away at me college is supposed to be a place for growth but I’ve let myself Stray From the Path I know I should follow last night as I sat in my room feeling the weight of my failing an idea occurred to me I need help something external to keep me accountable that’s when I thought of Chastity it’s drastic but perhaps that’s what I need today I worked up the courage to ask my mother for help it was terrifying I love her dearly but she’s always been so strict and old-fashioned in her beliefs I thought she might react with shock or disgust but to my surprise she listened she was quiet for a long time and I could see her weighing it in her mind finally she said if you’re serious about this Francis I will help you but understand I’ll treat this as a sacred trust if I’m to take responsibility I’ll do it properly she told me stories of her upbringing about how virtue was guarded zealously in her household she mentioned her convent school days and how the sisters believed in discipline and restraint as the path to righteousness I think those memories stirred something in her because she nodded and said yes I’ll keep your keys but you’ll have to earn any privileges back I don’t know whether to be relieved or more nervous the weight of my decision feels heavier now knowing she intends to enforce this strictly day three the device arrived today such a strange way to put it you know the device arrived today the device the prison in which I’m going to lock away my ability to sin and hand off the keys it’s strange and uncomfortable but in a way that’s the point isn’t it mother and expected it when I showed her her expression was unreadable but she nodded and said if this is what you truly want we’ll begin immediately the actual process of installing the device was far more awkward and difficult than I expected I locked myself in the bathroom to try it on thinking it would be simple but it wasn’t the instructions were clear yet the act of fitting it was anything but easy it pinched in ways I hadn’t anticipated and there were moments of genuine pain as I had adjusted the Rings and tried to secure everything in place my hands shook as I fumbled with the lock and I couldn’t stop thinking about how absurd and humiliating the situation was after what felt like an eternity I called for my mother I didn’t want to but I couldn’t figure out how to finish securing it on my own she came in her demeanor calm but firm and helped me make the final adjustments her hands were steady and she treated the moment with an almost clinical detachment which somehow made it even more embarrassing when she finally clicked the lock into place I felt an unsettling mix of relief and dread the sound of the lock snapping shut was Final and unyielding I thought that would be the end of it but the first few minutes were excruciating it wasn’t just the physical discomfort though that was significant it was the dawning realization of what I had committed to I begged her to let me take it off even just for a moment to get used to more gradually but her response was Resolute Francis you made this choice you asked me to help you and I agreed there’s no turning back now her tone left no room for argument she reminded me of the purpose behind this her words cutting through my growing doubts discipline isn’t supposed to be easy she said this is about self-control and sacrifice you’ll adjust but you need to accept that this is part of the process the rest of the day was was a haze of awkwardness and second guessing walking felt unnatural sitting was worse and every little movement was a constant reminder of the device’s presence I caught myself resenting her for being so unyielding but deep down I knew this was what I had asked for still I couldn’t shake the nagging thought that I had underestimated just how hard this would be mother for her part seemed entirely unbothered by my struggles she kept the keys in a small Leather Pouch which she placed in her purse with a quiet almost ceremonial finality you’ll thank me for this someday she said as she left the room I’m not so sure right now it feels like I’ve made a terrible mistake but it’s too late to turn back the key is Out Of Reach and so is any chance of escaping this commitment at least for now day seven this week has been challenging the physical adjustment is one thing but the mental aspect is even harder there’s a certain humiliation in knowing I’ve put this control in someone else’s hands especially my mother’s but at the same time I feel lighter somehow the constant guilt has lessened because I’ve removed the opportunity to fail mother has been true to her word she checks in on me not with intrusive questions but with subtle reminders yesterday she left a little note on my desk virtue is its own reward keep strong I crumpled it up at first annoyed by the reminder but later I smoothed it out and tucked it into my drawer it’s strange how much her approval matters to me now part of me resents how serious she is about this but the other part of me admires her resolve she’s taken this responsibility as seriously as I’d hop she would when I complained about the discomfort this morning she simply said you asked me to help you stay virtuous discomfort is part of that it stung but she’s right I’m trying to accept her strictness as a sign of her care day 14 two weeks in and I’m starting to notice changes in myself I’m more focused during lectures more patient with my classmates it’s as though removing the constant distraction has given me room to grow in other areas I’ve even started volunteering at the campus library to fill my evenings it’s a strange feeling a mix of Pride and humility but it feels like progress mother has noticed too she commented this morning that I seemed more composed this is the young man I always knew you could be she said I don’t know why but hearing that made me proud her approval feels like validation and it motivates me to keep going however she’s not letting me off the hook she’s still strict about the rules and when I asked if I could have the keys just for a little while she looked at me sharply are you already forgetting why we started this she asked I felt my face flush with shame she’s right of course I’m trying to remind myself that this isn’t about convenience it’s about discipline and self-control day 18 mother introduced a new rule today she wants me to keep a daily log of my thoughts and struggles she says it will help me reflect on my progress and identify any areas where I might need more guidance at first I resisted it felt too invasive but she insisted saying if you’re truly committed to this Francis you’ll want to document your journey writing these entries feels strange like bearing a part of my I’d rather keep hidden but I can see her point it forces me to confront my feelings honestly today for instance I realized how much I’ve started to rely on her support it’s humbling to admit but I don’t think I could do this alone day 21 I’ve started to think of this as less of a punishment and more of a discipline it’s strange how quickly I’ve adapted to the routine mother continues to be my reminder day 22 I snapped today the constant discomfort the humiliating dependence on my mother for something so personal it all boiled over I couldn’t take it anymore it felt like the device was mocking me with every step every movement and knowing the keys were just Within Reach but entirely out of my control made it unbearable mother I’m done with this I declared after breakfast standing rigidly in the doorway to her study my tone was sharp defiant even angry this has gone too far I want the keys back today she didn’t even look up from her sewing her calmness only infuriated me further sit down Francis she said her voice as composed as ever let’s talk about this no I don’t want to talk I snapped I made a mistake and I need you to undo it right now finally she looked at me her expression firm but not unkind Francis you asked for my help because you recognized that you needed discipline and accountability are you really prepared to throw all of that away yes I am I shouted my frustration spilling over this isn’t discipline it’s torture I can’t focus I can’t sleep and I feel like I’m being punished constantly this was a terrible idea and I want out she set her sewing down and Rose to her feet her eyes locking onto mine Francis sit her tone was sharper now Brooking no argument reluctantly I obeyed slumping into the nearest chair you made a commitment she continued standing over me and I promised to help you honor it do you understand what that means it means I’m trapped I muttered not meeting her gaze it means she said her voice firm that I will not let you undermine your own progress because of a moment of frustration this is about more than your immediate Comfort Francis it’s about building character self-control and strength and sometimes that requires enduring discomfort but it’s too much I said weakly my Defiance crumbling under her unwavering stare nonsense she replied briskly you’re stronger than you think but if you insist on testing my resolve let me assure you that I will not falter if I must take firmer measures to ensure your cooperation I will her words sent a shiver down my spine what do you mean by firmer measures I asked cautiously she sighed as though disappointed in my lack of understanding Francis if you behave like a petulant child I will treat you like one that means consequences if you continue to resist I’ll take you over my knee and remind you what discipline meant in this household when you were younger my face burned with embarrassment you wouldn’t dare her expression hardened try me the tension in the room was suffocating I felt trapped not just by the device but by her unwavering Authority fine I mumbled defeated you win this isn’t about winning Francis she said her tone softening slightly it’s about helping you become the man you want want to be now I expect you to reflect on why you felt the need to rebel and how you can handle those feelings more constructively in the future am I clear yes mother I replied my voice barely above a whisper good now go finish your studies and remember Francis I’m doing this because I love you day 23 I’m still seething from yesterday the humiliation of being put in my place like that of being threatened with a punishment so childish is hard to swallow but deep down I know she’s serious the keys are still firmly in her possession and she’s made it clear that she won’t tolerate any more Defiance this morning she left a note on my desk discipline is not the enemy of Happiness Francis it is its foundation I crumpled it up and threw it in the trash but the words lingered in my mind all day maybe she’s right maybe I’m just not ready to admit it yet day 25 the Rebellion is over I’ve resigned myself to my fate at least for now there’s no use fighting her she holds all the power in this Arrangement and as much as I hate to admit it there’s a strange comfort in that knowing that someone else is in control that I don’t have to wrestle with temptation on my own takes a certain weight off my shoulders mother has been more encouraging since our confrontation she’s strict yes but she’s also supportive in her own way this morning she handed me a cup of tea and said I’m proud of you Francis I know this isn’t easy but you’re showing real strength by persevering I didn’t know how to respond part of me wanted to scoff but another part felt a swell of Pride maybe she’s right maybe I am stronger than I think .

Déroulement de la vidéo:

0.08 good day to you all my name is Leona
0.08 Ashcroft and I oversee the archives of
0.08 the sasen Federation for matriarchal
0.08 superiority where we detail the most
0.08 effective means of keeping Brash young
0.08 men under control and right where they
0.08 belong locked up in Chastity and at the
0.08 behest of a wise woman key holder you&;ll
0.08 be hearing a lot more about us before
0.08 long but today I wanted to share with
0.08 you a little something from our archives
0.08 the journal entries of Francis Maxwell a
0.08 young young man who struggled against
0.08 what was right but ultimately found his
0.08 way to where he needed to
0.08 be from the chassity Journal of Francis
0.08 Maxwell day one I&;ve been feeling
0.08 ashamed of myself for weeks now every
0.08 time I fall into temptation I&;m left
0.08 with guilt that feels like it&;s eating
0.08 away at me college is supposed to be a
0.08 place for growth but I&;ve let myself
0.08 Stray From the Path I know I should
0.08 follow last night as I sat in my room
0.08 feeling the weight of my failing
0.08 an idea occurred to me I need help
0.08 something external to keep me
0.08 accountable that&;s when I thought of
0.08 Chastity it&;s drastic but perhaps that&;s
0.08 what I need today I worked up the
0.08 courage to ask my mother for help it was
0.08 terrifying I love her dearly but she&;s
0.08 always been so strict and old-fashioned
0.08 in her beliefs I thought she might react
0.08 with shock or disgust but to my surprise
0.08 she listened she was quiet for a long
0.08 time and I could see her weighing it in
0.08 her mind finally she said if you&;re
0.08 serious about this Francis I will help
0.08 you but understand I&;ll treat this as a
0.08 sacred trust if I&;m to take
0.08 responsibility I&;ll do it properly she
0.08 told me stories of her upbringing about
0.08 how virtue was guarded zealously in her
0.08 household she mentioned her convent
0.08 school days and how the sisters believed
0.08 in discipline and restraint as the path
0.08 to
0.08 righteousness I think those memories
0.08 stirred something in her because she
0.08 nodded and said yes I&;ll keep your keys
0.08 but you&;ll have to earn any privileges
0.08 back I don&;t know whether to be relieved
0.08 or more nervous the weight of my
0.08 decision feels heavier now knowing she
0.08 intends to enforce this
0.08 strictly day three the device arrived
0.08 today such a strange way to put it you
0.08 know the device arrived today the device
0.08 the prison in which I&;m going to lock
0.08 away my ability to sin and hand off the
0.08 keys it&;s strange and uncomfortable but
0.08 in a way that&;s the point isn&;t it
0.08 mother and expected it when I showed her
0.08 her expression was unreadable but she
0.08 nodded and said if this is what you
0.08 truly want we&;ll begin
0.08 immediately the actual process of
0.08 installing the device was far more
0.08 awkward and difficult than I expected I
0.08 locked myself in the bathroom to try it
0.08 on thinking it would be simple but it
0.08 wasn&;t the instructions were clear yet
0.08 the act of fitting it was anything but
0.08 easy it pinched in ways I hadn&;t
0.08 anticipated and there were moments of
0.08 genuine pain as I had adjusted the Rings
0.08 and tried to secure everything in place
0.08 my hands shook as I fumbled with the
0.08 lock and I couldn&;t stop thinking about
0.08 how absurd and humiliating the situation
0.08 was after what felt like an eternity I
0.08 called for my mother I didn&;t want to
0.08 but I couldn&;t figure out how to finish
0.08 securing it on my own she came in her
0.08 demeanor calm but firm and helped me
0.08 make the final adjustments her hands
0.08 were steady and she treated the moment
0.08 with an almost clinical detachment
0.08 which somehow made it even more
0.08 embarrassing when she finally clicked
0.08 the lock into place I felt an unsettling
0.08 mix of relief and dread the sound of the
0.08 lock snapping shut was Final and
0.08 unyielding I thought that would be the
0.08 end of it but the first few minutes were
0.08 excruciating it wasn&;t just the physical
0.08 discomfort though that was significant
0.08 it was the dawning realization of what I
0.08 had committed to I begged her to let me
0.08 take it off even just for a moment to
0.08 get used to more gradually but her
0.08 response was Resolute Francis you made
0.08 this choice you asked me to help you and
0.08 I agreed there&;s no turning back now her
0.08 tone left no room for argument she
0.08 reminded me of the purpose behind this
0.08 her words cutting through my growing
0.08 doubts discipline isn&;t supposed to be
0.08 easy she said this is about self-control
0.08 and sacrifice you&;ll adjust but you need
0.08 to accept that this is part of the
0.08 process the rest of the day was was a
0.08 haze of awkwardness and second guessing
0.08 walking felt unnatural sitting was worse
0.08 and every little movement was a constant
0.08 reminder of the device&;s
0.08 presence I caught myself resenting her
0.08 for being so unyielding but deep down I
0.08 knew this was what I had asked for still
0.08 I couldn&;t shake the nagging thought
0.08 that I had underestimated just how hard
0.08 this would be mother for her part seemed
0.08 entirely unbothered by my struggles she
0.08 kept the keys in a small Leather Pouch
0.08 which she placed in her purse with a
0.08 quiet almost ceremonial finality you&;ll
0.08 thank me for this someday she said as
0.08 she left the room I&;m not so sure right
0.08 now it feels like I&;ve made a terrible
0.08 mistake but it&;s too late to turn back
0.08 the key is Out Of Reach and so is any
0.08 chance of escaping this commitment at
0.08 least for now day seven this week has
0.08 been challenging the physical adjustment
0.08 is one thing but the mental aspect is
0.08 even harder there&;s a certain
0.08 humiliation in knowing I&;ve put this
0.08 control in someone else&;s hands
0.08 especially my mother&;s but at the same
0.08 time I feel lighter somehow the constant
0.08 guilt has lessened because I&;ve removed
0.08 the opportunity to fail mother has been
0.08 true to her word she checks in on me not
0.08 with intrusive questions but with subtle
0.08 reminders yesterday she left a little
0.08 note on my desk virtue is its own reward
0.08 keep strong I crumpled it up at first
0.08 annoyed by the reminder but later I
0.08 smoothed it out and tucked it into my
0.08 drawer it&;s strange how much her
0.08 approval matters to me now part of me
0.08 resents how serious she is about this
0.08 but the other part of me admires her
0.08 resolve she&;s taken this responsibility
0.08 as seriously as I&;d hop she would when I
0.08 complained about the discomfort this
0.08 morning she simply said you asked me to
0.08 help you stay virtuous discomfort is
0.08 part of that it stung but she&;s right
0.08 I&;m trying to accept her strictness as a
0.08 sign of her care day
0.08 14 two weeks in and I&;m starting to
0.08 notice changes in myself I&;m more
0.08 focused during lectures more patient
0.08 with my classmates it&;s as though
0.08 removing the constant distraction has
0.08 given me room to grow in other areas
0.08 I&;ve even started volunteering at the
0.08 campus library to fill my evenings it&;s
0.08 a strange feeling a mix of Pride and
0.08 humility but it feels like progress
0.08 mother has noticed too she commented
0.08 this morning that I seemed more composed
0.08 this is the young man I always knew you
0.08 could be she said I don&;t know why but
0.08 hearing that made me proud her approval
0.08 feels like validation and it motivates
0.08 me to keep going however she&;s not
0.08 letting me off the hook she&;s still
0.08 strict about the rules and when I asked
0.08 if I could have the keys just for a
0.08 little while she looked at me sharply
0.08 are you already forgetting why we
0.08 started this she asked I felt my face
0.08 flush with shame she&;s right of course
0.08 I&;m trying to remind myself that this
0.08 isn&;t about convenience it&;s about
0.08 discipline and
0.08 self-control day 18 mother introduced a
0.08 new rule today she wants me to keep a
0.08 daily log of my thoughts and struggles
0.08 she says it will help me reflect on my
0.08 progress and identify any areas where I
0.08 might need more guidance at first I
0.08 resisted it felt too invasive but she
0.08 insisted saying if you&;re truly
0.08 committed to this Francis you&;ll want to
0.08 document your journey writing these
0.08 entries feels strange like bearing a
0.08 part of my I&;d rather keep hidden but I
0.08 can see her point it forces me to
0.08 confront my feelings honestly today for
0.08 instance I realized how much I&;ve
0.08 started to rely on her support it&;s
0.08 humbling to admit but I don&;t think I
0.08 could do this alone day 21 I&;ve started
0.08 to think of this as less of a punishment
0.08 and more of a discipline it&;s strange
0.08 how quickly I&;ve adapted to the routine
0.08 mother continues to be my
0.08 reminder day 22 I snapped today the
0.08 constant discomfort the humiliating
0.08 dependence on my mother for something so
0.08 personal it all boiled over I couldn&;t
0.08 take it anymore it felt like the device
0.08 was mocking me with every step every
0.08 movement and knowing the keys were just
0.08 Within Reach but entirely out of my
0.08 control made it
0.08 unbearable mother I&;m done with this I
0.08 declared after breakfast standing
0.08 rigidly in the doorway to her study my
0.08 tone was sharp defiant even angry this
0.08 has gone too far I want the keys back
0.08 today she didn&;t even look up from her
0.08 sewing her calmness only infuriated me
0.08 further sit down Francis she said her
0.08 voice as composed as ever let&;s talk
0.08 about this no I don&;t want to talk I
0.08 snapped I made a mistake and I need you
0.08 to undo it right now finally she looked
0.08 at me her expression firm but not unkind
0.08 Francis you asked for my help because
0.08 you recognized that you needed
0.08 discipline and accountability are you
0.08 really prepared to throw all of that
0.08 away
0.08 yes I am I shouted my frustration
0.08 spilling over this isn&;t discipline it&;s
0.08 torture I can&;t focus I can&;t sleep and
0.08 I feel like I&;m being punished
0.08 constantly this was a terrible idea and
0.08 I want out she set her sewing down and
0.08 Rose to her feet her eyes locking onto
0.08 mine Francis sit her tone was sharper
0.08 now Brooking no argument reluctantly I
0.08 obeyed slumping into the nearest chair
0.08 you made a commitment she continued
0.08 standing over me and I promised to help
0.08 you honor it do you understand what that
0.08 means it means I&;m trapped I muttered
0.08 not meeting her gaze it means she said
0.08 her voice firm that I will not let you
0.08 undermine your own progress because of a
0.08 moment of frustration this is about more
0.08 than your immediate Comfort Francis it&;s
0.08 about building character self-control
0.08 and strength and sometimes that requires
0.08 enduring
0.08 discomfort but it&;s too much I said
0.08 weakly my Defiance crumbling under her
0.08 unwavering stare
0.08 nonsense she replied briskly you&;re
0.08 stronger than you think but if you
0.08 insist on testing my resolve let me
0.08 assure you that I will not falter if I
0.08 must take firmer measures to ensure your
0.08 cooperation I will her words sent a
0.08 shiver down my spine what do you mean by
0.08 firmer measures I asked cautiously she
0.08 sighed as though disappointed in my lack
0.08 of understanding Francis if you behave
0.08 like a petulant child I will treat you
0.08 like one that means consequences
0.08 if you continue to resist I&;ll take you
0.08 over my knee and remind you what
0.08 discipline meant in this household when
0.08 you were younger my face burned with
0.08 embarrassment you wouldn&;t dare her
0.08 expression hardened try me the tension
0.08 in the room was suffocating I felt
0.08 trapped not just by the device but by
0.08 her unwavering Authority fine I mumbled
0.08 defeated you win this isn&;t about
0.08 winning Francis she said her tone
0.08 softening slightly it&;s about helping
0.08 you become the man you want want to be
0.08 now I expect you to reflect on why you
0.08 felt the need to rebel and how you can
0.08 handle those feelings more
0.08 constructively in the future am I clear
0.08 yes mother I replied my voice barely
0.08 above a whisper good now go finish your
0.08 studies and remember Francis I&;m doing
0.08 this because I love
0.08 you day 23 I&;m still seething from
0.08 yesterday the humiliation of being put
0.08 in my place like that of being
0.08 threatened with a punishment so childish
0.08 is hard to swallow but deep down I know
0.08 she&;s serious the keys are still firmly
0.08 in her possession and she&;s made it
0.08 clear that she won&;t tolerate any more
0.08 Defiance this morning she left a note on
0.08 my desk discipline is not the enemy of
0.08 Happiness Francis it is its foundation I
0.08 crumpled it up and threw it in the trash
0.08 but the words lingered in my mind all
0.08 day maybe she&;s right maybe I&;m just not
0.08 ready to admit it yet day 25 the
0.08 Rebellion is over I&;ve resigned myself
0.08 to my fate at least for now there&;s no
0.08 use fighting her she holds all the power
0.08 in this Arrangement and as much as I
0.08 hate to admit it there&;s a strange
0.08 comfort in that knowing that someone
0.08 else is in control that I don&;t have to
0.08 wrestle with temptation on my own takes
0.08 a certain weight off my shoulders mother
0.08 has been more encouraging since our
0.08 confrontation she&;s strict yes but she&;s
0.08 also supportive in her own way
0.08 this morning she handed me a cup of tea
0.08 and said I&;m proud of you Francis I know
0.08 this isn&;t easy but you&;re showing real
0.08 strength by persevering I didn&;t know
0.08 how to respond part of me wanted to
0.08 scoff but another part felt a swell of
0.08 Pride maybe she&;s right maybe I am
0.08 stronger than I think
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